happiness

today i woke up early. at 9! eventho i slept at 4.30 still bangun awal! crazy la niii. tiba2 terfikir. am i happy? am i actually happy? am i pretending to be happy? or am i doing things that's not making myself happy? what do i really want? what's happines is all about? i dont know. i know what i really want. but i pretend as if i never wanted it. aagain.. am i a good pretender ? maybe i dah sampai to tht extent yg i can pretend without being noticed yg i tgh pretend! but sometimes i don't!! act i tak pretend tp i ckp i pretend! apekah itu? fren told me, i have this ego. ya kah!! i thot im not that person. but maybe i am hahaha. tp takpela apa nak buat. i'm fine. i know i can live throughout this misery inside me. apekah merepek2 ni.. mmg mamai baru bangun tido nih!!!
happy weekend!!

busy week

its been a week i think, since my last post here. ive been busy, very busy. this week on monday i dont have to wake u early, but no, i didnt sleep actually. haha, buat keje la.. byk. then yes, tuesday again, i dont have to wake up early hoorreeeyyy!! no more work. i thot everybody at work'gonna miss me. but unfortunately, they're gonna have to see my face again for at least one year. hehehe. i am so coming back to that place, hope i can gain as much experience as i can. n yes, pay for my tution fees. byk ok!! this is not ipta. mmg la ada org offer nak bayarkan, but i prefer bayar sendiri. cam bagus saja!! hahahhaha
yesterday me n fren were going to the curve, nak shoping. wa lama tak shop. way, then ternampak ade kete waja jatuh dlm lngkang besar by the road. gila la macane tah dia bole masuk dlm tuh kan.. so pls drive carefully. it could be u :) my school buka puasa reunion is gona be next week. looking forward to see them all there. kan bes kalau ramai2 mcm dulu2.

smell of green apple

nutrition facts on green apple
1. 36 calories
2. high vitamin C

i always like the smell of green apple. and coffee! sabun basuh pinggan bau green apple, floor detergent green apple, softener baju je tak :) kalau la perfume kete ade bau ni, mesti beli gak. dulu2 ade jugak cari perfume bau green apple. tp tak jumpa. tp aromatherapy oil ada. wangi gila!! satu rumah bau.. coffee pon satu rumah bau. mcm kat coffee bean terasa hehe.
but actually, i tak suka makan green apple sbb keras. i prefer fuji apple lembut. tp kalau green apple makan ngan garam yumyummm jugakk.. dus.. puasa asik ckp pasal makan jer!

:: al fatihah to adik nurin

ari ni taksakit perut!!

alhamdulillah, ari ni tak sakit perut. hehehe. yesterday i didn't buy anythin from pasar ramadhan, masak je. tuh opn mkn pasta sbb tak idea la nak mkn apa. lagi pon my pasta ade peminat hehe. byk betul dia makan, licin.. siap mintak2 lagikk!!
so dengan ini terbukti yang harisakit perut tuh caused by food kat pasar ramadhan. so anda semua, mari kita boikot pasar ramadhan .. ni bkn nak tutup periuk nasi org2 yg bukak gerai kat pasar ramadhan. tp diorang masak ikot suka asal siap jer. tak pk org puasa seharian, tak makan. nak makan buka puasa nih.

these few days, rasa mcm nervous skit.. waiting for the result. harap berjaya :) suprisingly, somebody yg not so close to me,called me up today. blablabla.. then dia kata, ok takpe biar dia bayar my tution fees. suprised betul!! but somehow, i rejected his offer. apekah?? id rather stand on my own feet. betolkah ini ?? is this me?? mcm tak percayalah!! hahah yes this is me. i know some ppl sometimes cuba nak pengaruh my decision. tp i'm a big girl now. noone can say no to my decision. even tho dia ckp no, so what? yes, maybe ade bende besar.. such as ... ( rahsia ) yg definitely can change my decision n my 6 yrs plan. ( yes,i've 6 yrs plan, trust me! ) tp bende besar tuh, i akan tolak tepi jauh jauh.. whtver yg come in my way, i will definitely throw them away. sh.. merepek!! selesai sessi merepek

sessi soal jawab agama..
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sekian ...

teringat puasa masa kat sekolah

suddenly teringat bulan puasa mase kat skola menengah. back then i studied at one of the boarding schools in southern region. it's all girls school. i was there for 5 years. salu thari after school, we go back to our dorm and sleep la. mengabiskan masa lapang haha.puk 3 kang bangun gi prep plak. pas prep kol 4.30 balik tido lagi!! mandi2 sume. but atc kitorang sume kene gi baca quran either kat surau atau common room block. tp ade jugak yg dok kat dorm je. suprisingly, oncei khatam quran mase bulan puasa tuh!! siap dpt hadiah. amazing tak amazing?? mcm tak percaya jer. org lain pun tak percaya hahahaha pastuh, sementara tunggu bukak puasa kol 7 lebih tuh kitorang ramai2 la round compound. our school is big. so mmg exercise betullah petang2 tuh. ade yang posing2amik gamba :) .
then everyday, ptg2 tuh mesti ade trip gi pasar ramadhan kat stadium larkin tuh. kalau tak diri sendiri pergi, pesan kat org lain. salu nye mase tuh glame air katira n roti john. then salu bulan puasa nih tamakla, beli mcm2. penuh la nanti atas meja makantuh dgn kuih muih. bkn dininghall takde kuih, kurma, tp saja gatal. tp bulan puasa bukak puasa lauk ok, boleh tahan aa.. i always like chicken soup n macaroni tuh :) and nasi tomato. then time tgh bukak puasa tuh, nnt pasang lagu raya.. meriah je. ade jugak dedication hari raya :) sahur kat sekola dulu salu meriahh jer. i still remember once dorang bukak lagu titanic tuh mase sahur. tp tak ingat lah kenape yer.. mase tuh hot lagu titanic kot hehehe.
mlm2surau mesti penuh budak2 semayang terawih. baik budak2 semua :) salu surau tuh ade gak kosong2 kan.tp timebulan puasa penuh jer...kalau pak taib atau pak yem jadik imam, boleh tahan lagi. tapi kalau ustaz.. tak ingat aa nama dia. waduh2.. bisa melayan mimpi!! lama gila!!!! abis khusyuk la kitorang semua semayang terawih hahahah.

itulah puasa zman sekolah :)seronok. bukak puasa ramai2 dgn kawan2. gi beli makanan sama2 kat pasar ramadhan. next yr genap 10 yrs tinggal sekolah. everybody dah sebok dgn new family, new baby..

mood : missing old days

cirit birit di bulan ramadhan

dorang ni kan, nakmasak tuh berpada pada la.. dah la menjual di bulanpuasa, tak berkat tau. end up pembeli2 nih cirit birit satu hari. yesterday i cooked at hoome n bought murtabak n sayur. i think the kuah murtabak tuh basi tah2 nyer. teruk aa.. or maybe the murtabak. day before i bought acar timun, makan2 rasa mcm basi, n hati lembu tuh plak tak masak! teruk betol la! mmg makan duit haram aaa dorang2 ni semua.

the good thing is, we get to masak bulan puasa ni. and try new recipe. since semua makanan kat luar tuh mendatangkan ciritbirit ok!! waa.. i love makan aa :). next weekend my sister n my brother's gonna be here. hopefully, and we're gonna make bubur lambuk, favorite di bulan puasa :D and sotong sumbat. waa ari tuh buat sotong sumbat besh! so bole buat lagi hehehe

kesabaran teruji di bulan ramadhan

sesungguhnya di bulan Ramadhan ni mmg byk dugaan yang datang... namun begitu kita semua mesti bersabar dan bersabar dan terus bersabar.. supaya pahala puasa tak berkurangan. betol tak? contohnya, jangan nak mengamok2, jangan menyebut @#*&$%&~*^.

things yang betul2 menguji kesabaran
1. tengah drive ni. ade pulak manusia dok right lane tp drive slow gila!!! sabar.. sabar..
2. alemakk jam gila la hari ni..
3. pc kat ofis plak buat hal, ni stok nak print nih dah sejam tak print2 lagi, ape juta kali restart tak jln gak. client dah tunggu lama tuh!! ( campak je masuk lombong pc tuh)
4. lalu kedai makan yg sgt bes nyer bau.. uuu sedap sedappppp
5. tengok gambar makanan yg sgt menyelerakan mase surf tempat utk bukak puasa gathering. isk isk..
6. ade org tuh nak masuk kanan kiri bawak kete bukan reti nak signal!
7. tiba2 wujud plak bumper kat jln ni. lansung terus langgar bumper, gedegung!! bkn nak bagik sign nnt ade bumper. atau nanti nak buat bumper baru.
8. ( sape nak tambah list sila tambah sila sila.. )

okla, di samping tuh bulan puasa ni kita bole buat program mari mencuba resepi baru!! tp hari ni im not gonna try new recipe. but im gonna make nasi tomato with ayam masak kurma. sedap sedappp.. sat gi nak gi kedai beli daun ketumbar yg tak ada. tomorrow? fikir dulu. any suggestion?