have u ever been in love?

taken from my old blog ( 4 yrs back )

" Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask you for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you and leaves you crying in the darkness...It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and- rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." - Neil Gaiman

everything's true.. but eventho i hate love, i still enjoy love. it's like living in uur dreams. taking all the chances of happiness

jiwang jiwang la la la ~~

:: We come to love not by finding the perfect person, But by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly ::
:: A million words would not bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried ::
:: When I met you I was afraid to like you. When I liked you, I was afraid to love you. And now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you ::
:: If you were to die 100 days from now, I would want to die 99 days from now so I wouldn't have to live a day without you ::
:: If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with... ::
:: We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives ::
:: Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood ::
:: Sometimes you need to let go, even when it may hurt you more than any other pain in the world ::

little miss

little miss, good morning!
little miss! is it in my share docs?
little miss!

thats me. my boss has been calling me that since the past few months, probably becos im the smallest here.
boss 1 : little miss
boss 2 : hey don't call her little miss. she's not little anymore. she's big now
me : yeah, i'm fat now..

true, ive gained weight.. around 5 kilos? hahaha. last time no matter how much i eat, i wouldnt be this fat. now i can no longer wear my jeans. its 2 size bigger now!! even my baju pon cam alamak, ketat! but im happy, and gaining weight shows that im happy.

enuff bout the weight. i want to try new recipe next month. getting new cooking book. want to buy new dress but unfortunately its not the time for shopping cos ive to settle lotsa debts this month, rental, bills blabla.. our 10 years gathering is coming up. on 19th july. we've left school for 10 years. just now went to the tshirtprinter to ask for the printing price. told the taukey im ptinting the tshirt for 10 yrs gath. he laughed at me, asking my age. said that i look 18. hahahaha. i can be 18! i dontmind hehe

enveluv.com and menu for tonite

i found out about this website end of last yr, masa jalan2 around MMU. well the project is owned by mmu grads. the concept is, u choose a card from the website and fill out the particulars. then they will send the real card to the recipients. isnt that fantastic! and its FREE ! i think yes because i dont have to pening2 kepala pilih kad kat kedai since there are only few choices in the website. plus i dont have to q to buy stamps at the post office, betol tak? yet, we still get to suprise to our loved ones :) gila kaya dorang nih kan?? bagi kad free2 jer.. maybe for the time being la kot. later when they have more choices kene bayarla kot. so apakata selagi dia free kita guna je kad yg ada ni hehe.


MENU for tonite?

hm.. guess going for lasagna hooreyy. letih aa hari2 nak kene pk nak masak apa. but the best thing is i get to cook la. its good to have someone around who'll eat whatever ure cooking. kalau dok sorang2, hari2 makan maggi la jawabnya sbb nak masak nnt sape nak makan. takkan makan sorang pon nak masak bes2. tak logik betull.. especially for a person who enjoys cooking like me. well i guess i'll save the lasagna for tomorrow. lama n leceh nak wat dia la.. masak lama gila. so esok bole msk lasagna. n today masak apa plak?? aish.. buat quick lasagna la ok gak.

birthdays

i am very bad at birthdays.. very very bad at celebrating birthdays. cos i can easily remember phone numbers, but not dates.. once, i dumped my ex bf on his birthday eve. even my bestfriends' birthdays pon salu lupa. everybody remembers my birthday. apa nak buat. my bad. yes.. mmg i dah prepare dah for his birthday, ive some plans... waiting for the time to execute it. unfortunately .. my bad.. there's nothing i can do. afterwards, none of you should remember my birthday cos i dont remember other's except for baby.. i pnah tak igt besday sendiri ok! i mean, tak sedar that day was birthday. and for those yg i dont remember their birthdays, im so so sorry. i think things will be better if there's no birthday celebrations.

IRON MAN

me and kambing went to watch Iron Man the movie on tuesday. tgk kat IOI mall jer, near, fuel saving, toll saving, time saving and it's cheaper! but overall the Iron Man was a blast! usually heroes ni handsome2 kan.. but this hero tak handsome pon. just an ordinary nerd look i think. and old! tp kalau tua mcm richard gere lain plak kan.. george clooney ke.. tp ni tua tak hensem! boleh la.. but he was amazing in the movie sbb sgt tere.. bole buat robot from scraps! within few days jer! gila la taklogik iron man nih. tapi takper, i wish i can wear the suit hehehehe sbb cantik n sgt bes.

oh i have few movie tips here
1. watch movies after 2 weeks launched , u'll get cheaper price
2. watch before 6 pm weekdays, yes it's cheaper too n senang dpt tiket
3. don't go during weekends, mahal! mcm kat sunway pyramid tuh mau 12 ringgit sorang. dahla single seat jer hampas..
4. watch movies on wednesday :) i always go to the movies on wednesdays kat Cineleisure Damansara. kalau movie yg dah pas 2 weeks screened tuh rm7 jer for couple seat! do u guys know about this??
5. don't go to big malls like KLCC, Midvalley, gardens, pavillion to watch movies. obviously la higher rate. go to some smaller place near ur home such as Leisure Mall, Summit, IOI Mall and blablabla.. cheaper and jarang sold out.
6. please check movie screen time kat internet or newspaper or phone before pegi cinema. hari tuh tgk ironman, sampai sana pukul 3 tp movie start pukul 4.50!!

it's may! and june's coming. so are the good movies. check your planner and save your wednesdays for movies.

gila lama tak update mcm byk benda nak cerita. Last week me, kambing, nunu, moshi2 and BK went to hartamas, yes.. after minum iceblended dan cheesecake dan kenyang gila sambil bergelak ketaawa tak ingat kat starbucks IOI. masih ade hati nak makan lagi nih?? haish haishhh.. after late dinner we went to the breakers main foosball. mcm tuh ke eja?? nway that was my first time. and sgt bes! girls vs guys . kitorang girls la menang kan.. bising je kat situ kitorang menjerit2 dan melompat katak.

my birthday wish list :)

at the moment, i have few things that i really want to do and to have. in order to get what i wanna do i need to have few things.

1. a new expensive microwave oven which can do all kind of cookings ( sayang, r u getting this for me? )
2. shopping spree!! and holiday
3. live happily ever after
4. get great job
5. cooking books! a lot of them, for cakes, cookies, mediterranean , mexican, traditional malay, chinese foods, anti ageing food ( yes i found it in a bookstore )
6. a car??
7. be with my baby and my sayang