happiness

today i woke up early. at 9! eventho i slept at 4.30 still bangun awal! crazy la niii. tiba2 terfikir. am i happy? am i actually happy? am i pretending to be happy? or am i doing things that's not making myself happy? what do i really want? what's happines is all about? i dont know. i know what i really want. but i pretend as if i never wanted it. aagain.. am i a good pretender ? maybe i dah sampai to tht extent yg i can pretend without being noticed yg i tgh pretend! but sometimes i don't!! act i tak pretend tp i ckp i pretend! apekah itu? fren told me, i have this ego. ya kah!! i thot im not that person. but maybe i am hahaha. tp takpela apa nak buat. i'm fine. i know i can live throughout this misery inside me. apekah merepek2 ni.. mmg mamai baru bangun tido nih!!!
happy weekend!!

busy week

its been a week i think, since my last post here. ive been busy, very busy. this week on monday i dont have to wake u early, but no, i didnt sleep actually. haha, buat keje la.. byk. then yes, tuesday again, i dont have to wake up early hoorreeeyyy!! no more work. i thot everybody at work'gonna miss me. but unfortunately, they're gonna have to see my face again for at least one year. hehehe. i am so coming back to that place, hope i can gain as much experience as i can. n yes, pay for my tution fees. byk ok!! this is not ipta. mmg la ada org offer nak bayarkan, but i prefer bayar sendiri. cam bagus saja!! hahahhaha
yesterday me n fren were going to the curve, nak shoping. wa lama tak shop. way, then ternampak ade kete waja jatuh dlm lngkang besar by the road. gila la macane tah dia bole masuk dlm tuh kan.. so pls drive carefully. it could be u :) my school buka puasa reunion is gona be next week. looking forward to see them all there. kan bes kalau ramai2 mcm dulu2.

smell of green apple

nutrition facts on green apple
1. 36 calories
2. high vitamin C

i always like the smell of green apple. and coffee! sabun basuh pinggan bau green apple, floor detergent green apple, softener baju je tak :) kalau la perfume kete ade bau ni, mesti beli gak. dulu2 ade jugak cari perfume bau green apple. tp tak jumpa. tp aromatherapy oil ada. wangi gila!! satu rumah bau.. coffee pon satu rumah bau. mcm kat coffee bean terasa hehe.
but actually, i tak suka makan green apple sbb keras. i prefer fuji apple lembut. tp kalau green apple makan ngan garam yumyummm jugakk.. dus.. puasa asik ckp pasal makan jer!

:: al fatihah to adik nurin

ari ni taksakit perut!!

alhamdulillah, ari ni tak sakit perut. hehehe. yesterday i didn't buy anythin from pasar ramadhan, masak je. tuh opn mkn pasta sbb tak idea la nak mkn apa. lagi pon my pasta ade peminat hehe. byk betul dia makan, licin.. siap mintak2 lagikk!!
so dengan ini terbukti yang harisakit perut tuh caused by food kat pasar ramadhan. so anda semua, mari kita boikot pasar ramadhan .. ni bkn nak tutup periuk nasi org2 yg bukak gerai kat pasar ramadhan. tp diorang masak ikot suka asal siap jer. tak pk org puasa seharian, tak makan. nak makan buka puasa nih.

these few days, rasa mcm nervous skit.. waiting for the result. harap berjaya :) suprisingly, somebody yg not so close to me,called me up today. blablabla.. then dia kata, ok takpe biar dia bayar my tution fees. suprised betul!! but somehow, i rejected his offer. apekah?? id rather stand on my own feet. betolkah ini ?? is this me?? mcm tak percayalah!! hahah yes this is me. i know some ppl sometimes cuba nak pengaruh my decision. tp i'm a big girl now. noone can say no to my decision. even tho dia ckp no, so what? yes, maybe ade bende besar.. such as ... ( rahsia ) yg definitely can change my decision n my 6 yrs plan. ( yes,i've 6 yrs plan, trust me! ) tp bende besar tuh, i akan tolak tepi jauh jauh.. whtver yg come in my way, i will definitely throw them away. sh.. merepek!! selesai sessi merepek

sessi soal jawab agama..
takde soalan
sekian ...

teringat puasa masa kat sekolah

suddenly teringat bulan puasa mase kat skola menengah. back then i studied at one of the boarding schools in southern region. it's all girls school. i was there for 5 years. salu thari after school, we go back to our dorm and sleep la. mengabiskan masa lapang haha.puk 3 kang bangun gi prep plak. pas prep kol 4.30 balik tido lagi!! mandi2 sume. but atc kitorang sume kene gi baca quran either kat surau atau common room block. tp ade jugak yg dok kat dorm je. suprisingly, oncei khatam quran mase bulan puasa tuh!! siap dpt hadiah. amazing tak amazing?? mcm tak percaya jer. org lain pun tak percaya hahahaha pastuh, sementara tunggu bukak puasa kol 7 lebih tuh kitorang ramai2 la round compound. our school is big. so mmg exercise betullah petang2 tuh. ade yang posing2amik gamba :) .
then everyday, ptg2 tuh mesti ade trip gi pasar ramadhan kat stadium larkin tuh. kalau tak diri sendiri pergi, pesan kat org lain. salu nye mase tuh glame air katira n roti john. then salu bulan puasa nih tamakla, beli mcm2. penuh la nanti atas meja makantuh dgn kuih muih. bkn dininghall takde kuih, kurma, tp saja gatal. tp bulan puasa bukak puasa lauk ok, boleh tahan aa.. i always like chicken soup n macaroni tuh :) and nasi tomato. then time tgh bukak puasa tuh, nnt pasang lagu raya.. meriah je. ade jugak dedication hari raya :) sahur kat sekola dulu salu meriahh jer. i still remember once dorang bukak lagu titanic tuh mase sahur. tp tak ingat lah kenape yer.. mase tuh hot lagu titanic kot hehehe.
mlm2surau mesti penuh budak2 semayang terawih. baik budak2 semua :) salu surau tuh ade gak kosong2 kan.tp timebulan puasa penuh jer...kalau pak taib atau pak yem jadik imam, boleh tahan lagi. tapi kalau ustaz.. tak ingat aa nama dia. waduh2.. bisa melayan mimpi!! lama gila!!!! abis khusyuk la kitorang semua semayang terawih hahahah.

itulah puasa zman sekolah :)seronok. bukak puasa ramai2 dgn kawan2. gi beli makanan sama2 kat pasar ramadhan. next yr genap 10 yrs tinggal sekolah. everybody dah sebok dgn new family, new baby..

mood : missing old days

cirit birit di bulan ramadhan

dorang ni kan, nakmasak tuh berpada pada la.. dah la menjual di bulanpuasa, tak berkat tau. end up pembeli2 nih cirit birit satu hari. yesterday i cooked at hoome n bought murtabak n sayur. i think the kuah murtabak tuh basi tah2 nyer. teruk aa.. or maybe the murtabak. day before i bought acar timun, makan2 rasa mcm basi, n hati lembu tuh plak tak masak! teruk betol la! mmg makan duit haram aaa dorang2 ni semua.

the good thing is, we get to masak bulan puasa ni. and try new recipe. since semua makanan kat luar tuh mendatangkan ciritbirit ok!! waa.. i love makan aa :). next weekend my sister n my brother's gonna be here. hopefully, and we're gonna make bubur lambuk, favorite di bulan puasa :D and sotong sumbat. waa ari tuh buat sotong sumbat besh! so bole buat lagi hehehe

kesabaran teruji di bulan ramadhan

sesungguhnya di bulan Ramadhan ni mmg byk dugaan yang datang... namun begitu kita semua mesti bersabar dan bersabar dan terus bersabar.. supaya pahala puasa tak berkurangan. betol tak? contohnya, jangan nak mengamok2, jangan menyebut @#*&$%&~*^.

things yang betul2 menguji kesabaran
1. tengah drive ni. ade pulak manusia dok right lane tp drive slow gila!!! sabar.. sabar..
2. alemakk jam gila la hari ni..
3. pc kat ofis plak buat hal, ni stok nak print nih dah sejam tak print2 lagi, ape juta kali restart tak jln gak. client dah tunggu lama tuh!! ( campak je masuk lombong pc tuh)
4. lalu kedai makan yg sgt bes nyer bau.. uuu sedap sedappppp
5. tengok gambar makanan yg sgt menyelerakan mase surf tempat utk bukak puasa gathering. isk isk..
6. ade org tuh nak masuk kanan kiri bawak kete bukan reti nak signal!
7. tiba2 wujud plak bumper kat jln ni. lansung terus langgar bumper, gedegung!! bkn nak bagik sign nnt ade bumper. atau nanti nak buat bumper baru.
8. ( sape nak tambah list sila tambah sila sila.. )

okla, di samping tuh bulan puasa ni kita bole buat program mari mencuba resepi baru!! tp hari ni im not gonna try new recipe. but im gonna make nasi tomato with ayam masak kurma. sedap sedappp.. sat gi nak gi kedai beli daun ketumbar yg tak ada. tomorrow? fikir dulu. any suggestion?

hari mengantuk sedunia

1. sindrom mengantuk bulan ramadhan
baru 2nd day of ramadhan dah dilanda wabak mengantuk sedunia. mengantuk gila hari ni.. sebbaik td keluar gak jln2 naik kereta pegi amik surat claim insurans. so jadinya kurang mengantuk. tido awal mlm td. tp mmg ni sindrom bln puasa la.. takleh nak wat apa dah.

bebiri: ngantuk giler
bebiri: terleelap kpl senget
boo: aku dah tak ngantuk
boo: boss aku ckp aku gi clubbing mlm td
boo: aku tido awaltp ngantuk
boo: tp aku dah kuar drive2 n dah ok
bebiri: ni ngantuk cam nk mampos ni
bebiri: sejak pg
bebiri: kol 7 smpi opis
bebiri: tgh upload file
bebiri: bole terlelap
bebiri: saiko x saiko
boo: hahaha
boo: tuha
boo: mmg hari menganrtk sedunia a
bebiri: semerang
bebiri: ni minah sebelah aku ni
bebiri: dier boleh pesan pd aku
boo: tido l gker?
bebiri: kalo boss lalu
boo: kejutkan?
bebiri: gegar dier
boo: hahahhaaha
bebiri: sbb dier mengantuk
boo: tuh a
boo: ggila ari mengantuk arini
bebiri: gile ko
bebiri: aku tgh call melbourne td
bebiri: pon yg kepale atas meja
bebiri: nk terlelap lelap
boo: gila
boo: tgh call pon bole terlelap ker
boo: teruk betol
bebiri: bukan kau yg ckp
bebiri: keleg kau
bebiri: *keleg aku
bebiri: aku shadow ajer
boo: takkan mcm tuh pon tetido
boo: ahahhaa
boo: ko tido lambat ker
bebiri: dier pot pet pot pet
bebiri: aku suppose kene jot down laa
bebiri: kononnye
bebiri: hampeh tulisan aku mcmharam
bebiri: taakkk


2. sindrom berbuka puasa sorang diri
this is due to, either housemate keje balik mmg sgt lambat, or ade plan berbuka dgn boipren, atau? atau kita takde nak cari kawan2 nak gi buka puasa, atau kita takde bf/gf ?

3. sindrom gathering berbuka puasa. yay!!!
to 143 girls, jom la berbuka puasa ramai2 :)

4. sindrom shopping mopping.. woowweeeee!!

birthdate

2 nites ago i met someone, actually pasal keje, my boss introduced him to me. then, this person studied about all religions, few la kot, taoisme, muslim, christian, budhisme, hindu.. bende2 tuh aaa.. n zodiak jugak. when i told him my birthdate, he gave this long description. which is all true !! tp yg future prediction tuh pon harap2 true gak!! hahahaha.. ok my point is.. i think it's true, our personality ni based on our birthdate. mcm tuhan dah tentukan those who's born on this date.. will become like this and nnt jadi mcm ni blabla.. so org2 yg suka mengkaji2 birthdates n zodiak nih buat conclusion la from ppl' birthdates last nite he gave description based on hindu belief. i'm the number 8, i am the unwanted daughter of the sun. hahah kelakar plak. but apart from that, everything's ok. and i'm happy with what i am now, with what im doing and what i'm getting :)

so now, if u wanna learn about a person, study their zodiak, birthdate.. tak kesah la.. hindu ker omputeh ke islam ker.. tak banyak skit, ade betol nya.

ni ade few links for ur reference
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/
http://jyotisha.00it.com/bhava.htm
http://www.geocities.com/azdriana10/personaliti.htm
http://www.freewebs.com/adrenmahmud/pagefour.htm
http://www.angelfire.com/home/rahsiapandai/zodiak.html

my hari raya wish list

here goes my hari raya wish list ..

1. nak duit raya!!
2. duit raya lagi banyak2!!
3. and duit raya lagi jugakkk
4. new pendant
5. new heels
6. durian runtuh ( apekah ??!!) kot menang cabutan bertuah ke, loteri ke, ley shopping lebih skit
7. to go balik kampung and balik kl safely
8. no traffic jams mase balik raya
9. to stay home during hari raya
10. to meet all my frens

Ramadhan Al mubarak

ramadhan's here. so now all muslims kene start puasa for a month before raya raya. hari yang paling dinantikan sbb nnt boleh bergaya gaya dgn baju raya baru gituuuu.... hahaha my baju raya dah siap. satu dlm almari satu lgi belom amik. gilaa excited nak raya. tp still nak shopping raya gak nnt! sandal baru la for raya and few other things. amoih!!! over plak, mcm lah puasa penuh kan.

but i notice bila ramadhan ni la salu we can get together with frens n family, bukak puasa saama2. it's not that kita tak jumpa diorang time tak puasa, tp bulan puasa ni dia mcm lagi bermakna... jumpa ramai2. kalau tak, masing2 busy dgn hal masing2. but when ramadhan comes, everybody seems to spare sometime for little frens and family gatherings. masa nih la kita merapatkan silaturrahim.. cewahh.. ckp mcm ustazah :)
hari raya? no comment. dulu2 raya maybe excited la kan, but this year tatau lagi. too much questions no answer. tuh yg boring tuh nanti hehaheahah.

nway, mari kita berpuasa dan mengerjakan terawih. jgn buat maksiat tau.. bulan puasa nihhhss..

p/s : happy breakfasting! (can't wait.. hungry oledi)

what do i want now

what do i really want now? i can make a list ..

1. i want a good life!
2. i want to be a a successful person
3. i want an X5 (??) or 1 series BMW
4. i want a big house facing the sea. a glass house so i can sleep under the stars and moon
5. i want to enjoy my life with my frens and my sophie
6. i want to have my own kindergarten
7. i want to do everything that i wanna do
8. i want to go to all parts of the world
9. i want to botak ( do i?? done that before.. and since there's so much things that i really wanna do but i cannot do due to some circumstances, so i want to botak. )


what i don't need and don't want now?

1. i don't need a bf . love will distract me from achieving my goal.
2. distractions! i hate distractions.. e.g phone calls or sms when i'm in the middle of something.
3. i don't want ppl bugging me and give me troubles.
4. i don't wanna meet someone who can sweep off my feet. hahaha

first entry!

i'm just so happy today, that i just feel like starting a new blog :) . ade keje nih, tp malas sekejap boleh? life is so great that i think it's coming my way now.. and i guess i'm back to what i used to be. i had an exam yesterday and i know i didn't study!! but luckily i passed the exam. and i smiled all the way home. or is it the supplement my mom gave me?? she said her fren gave the supplement to her granddaughter and her granddaughter, so far got 4 flat for every semester. am i really gonna get 4 flat with this supplement? hehe. fren said.. " ko jgn buat2 tappaham pulak, mak kau nak soh kau dpt 4 flat la tuh! " crazy lohh!! how am i gonna get 4 flat if my subjects are all subjectives bkn bende yg baca2 terus exam tuh. but it's not impossible kan? ekekeke.

nway, nana just gave me gamba kat janda baik. yes we went to janda baik for merdeka. had fun n took lotsa photos. but still dont have time to edit the photos, ill do it later. my birthday's coming!! it's in bulan puasa.. what to do.. but we can still celebrate it rite? keskes..

:: currently listening to Save tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
thots : fren just gave birth to a baby girl congratulations!